I know – I should post first thing in the morning all these thoughts I have on the daily musings. I have been very wrapped up in politics lately and those have been my first, and sometimes second and third, posts of the day. I will try to fix that starting Monday.
If you go back to the beginning of the month, on February 2nd, Ban Breathnach discusses creative excursions but of a slightly different note. I love this particular excursion to a home furnishings or decorative accessories store. I have three that I go to for these particular outings but my favorite is Pier 1. If I cannot make it to the actual local store, I could spend hours going through things on their web site.
I like to go in, walk around. Then, I start thinking about my house and which items here I could use. I think about the changes I have always wanted to make to my kitchen – a tile backsplash in Tuscan colors behind my sink, painting of the one set of cupboards a gold and green. I think about what I could do to make my living room look much less like an office and play area – more on the wall, a nice way to have candles lit all the time. I think about how to make my bedroom, which doubles as my craft room, more of a sanctuary – throw pillows, maybe a screen to keep the craft stuff behind.
After I walk through, I go out to the car and write down the items I like. I print pictures off at home of them with pricing information so I can purchase if I get a small windfall.
On the days of February 3rd and 4th, we are introduced to our “authentic self.” I do understand the keeping her available for those important moments. I think I did this earlier in my life. Now I feel that I am at a point where I am more comfortable with myself than I have been in the past. The light is on daily. I do know this is hard for women. We invest so much of ourselves in others. As a mother, we invest ourselves in our children. As a wife, we invest ourselves in our husband. As a worker, we invest ourselves in our job. We need to be able to take those pieces of us back and make ourselves whole.
I think I relate most to the discussions of being an artist. I do create art. It took me a long time to think of myself as an artist. I make crafts, cards, scrapbook pages. I do painting, molding of clay, bending of wire. I bake and cook. All of these things are creating art. So I really enjoy reading February 7th & 8th. I also love reading the 9th where SBB talks about each day being a fresh canvas.