I knew, even though or maybe because I had taken the early start, that I was probably not going to be finishing the race in under two hours and 30 minutes. My goal in my mind was to finish and, hopefully, in under three hours. I was sure I could do it!
I had talked with several of the runners also taking the early start. One was sure that I would only see her at the start, not because I was fast but because she just knew. I finally hooked up with two runners from Montgomery, NY. Funny thing, I use to have relatives in Montgomery. One of my ex’s sister’s married into a family from there.
Anyway, I ran a little slower at the beginning. I knew I needed to start off a bit slower. I would need what little energy I conserved at the beginning for the end as I wanted to spring across the finish line – doesn’t every racer want to look good going across the finish? I caught up with the two women from Montgomery about a mile and a half in at the first water stop. I was at 17 minutes, not really a slow start for me but I was feeling good.
The ladies from Montgomery hadn’t been training as much as I had so they were sure we would be fine together. And we stayed together for a good portion of the race. We were together as the real “racers” came barreling past us. We received a lot of “good jobs” together as others who started at 10 am passed us and knew we were early starters. Both women were younger than I was but Karen was injured and Donna hadn’t run in weeks. At what I thought was 8.5 miles but was probably closer to just about 8 miles, I told the two of them to go ahead. I needed to slow down a bit.
At about mile 9.5 I had an asthma attack. I seriously didn’t think I was going to get that next breathe in. My doctor and I will have a serious discussion about this soon. I did what I have told my daughter to do many times. I slowed to a walk, straightened my arms out over my head and took several short breathes, then deep ones as I could. Once I could breathe again, I started running.
As I hit mile 11, I realized I was going to do it. Even though I may talk a good game, there was a nagging voice in the back of my head that said I could stop. I might not actually finish but by mile 11, I was positive I would finish. Kristy and her running partner Dan passed me about mile 12. I was trying hard as I came up to mile 13 to not cry.
Reaching a goal that you have set and worked for is an emotional moment. I crossed the finish line and knew that I had finished under the time I had set for myself. I was thinking I would go talk to Kristy and Dan but I couldn’t. I knew I was going to cry. It took a lot to get through the hotel to my room before truly letting go. I texted a good friend to let him know my time.
And one last mess – I am totally not sure what is up with my photo ability in the last post. I am going to put up a couple of pictures of what I came home with.







Mar 16, 2010 @ 05:28:36
Congratulations, Nicki! It’s so interesting that even 10 miles into the race, there was still a voice telling you that you could stop. I’m so glad you didn’t listen to it.
I guess because I know that feeling of crying after such an accomplishment, reading that part made my eyes well up. Such an amazing feeling.
Congratulations again.
Mar 16, 2010 @ 08:56:21
Thanks, Matt!
Mar 16, 2010 @ 12:10:00
Fantastic Nicki! I don’t know if this was true for you or not, but when I keep telling myself that it’s OK for me stop if I want to, it just makes me feel calm and I keep going. It sort of puts everything in perspective and then I don’t have to worry about the outcome. And the outcome is always better than I imagined. Weird how that works. Many congrats to you!
Mar 16, 2010 @ 15:31:44
Thanks, Patty! Knowing that the option is there does calm me. It also makes me want to swear at myself for considering it.
Mar 16, 2010 @ 12:13:34
Bravo! There is nothing quite so sweet as setting a challenging goal and achieving it. Fantastic!
Mar 16, 2010 @ 15:31:55
Thanks, BLW!!!
Mar 16, 2010 @ 19:56:18
Congratulations!! Finishing is emotional; I completely understand. It sounds like the whole experience (other than your asthma attack) was wonderful. How was the course? I debated running this half and I left it on the list for next year as as possibility. Congratulations again.
Mar 17, 2010 @ 05:21:02
Thanks, Suzy. The course was challenging, lots of hills. I train on lots of hills so that part didn’t bother me. I am running in Ithaca in April so will then have something to compare to.
Mar 17, 2010 @ 00:29:21
Hey – Congratulations!!! Great job Nicki
Mar 17, 2010 @ 05:21:32
Thanks, Ben! The training continues. Running Skunk Cabbage in Ithaca on 4/11.
Mar 17, 2010 @ 01:12:19
From one athletic asthmatic to another, I’m happy you made it and achieved your goals! I don’t know how your asthma looks on regular days, but I was in and out of hospitals throughout high school and a pretty sickly kid from age 11 on. I always thought that being fit would be out of the question for me. Guess what? With a few pre-exercise puffs of Albuterol (and Singulair, Theophyllin and Symbicort on a daily basis) I’m indistinguishable from other people.
Mar 17, 2010 @ 05:23:05
Thanks, Linda. The asthma is exercise-induced. On a day-in, day-out basis, I have no symptoms. The dr and I have toyed with Albuterol – which my daughter does use – but I have resisted until now. This was scary but manageable through techniques I have been taught.
Mar 17, 2010 @ 06:09:12
Congratulations, Nicki. I know exactly what you mean. IN ALL OF IT. Getting passed, slowing down, speeding up, fighting the demons in your head, crying during the last half-mile, and afterward.
Congratulations. You really really DID IT!
Mar 17, 2010 @ 06:18:44
Thanks, Sarah! Now that I have the first one behind me, time to work on time! LOL!!!!
Mar 17, 2010 @ 06:46:58
Nicki! That’s incredible
I’m sitting here in awe of you – you did it!! Congratulations!
Mar 17, 2010 @ 19:02:43
Thanks, Corinne! This is the reason I was not in NH on Saturday. I will, hopefully, make it next time.
Mar 17, 2010 @ 07:20:36
I’ve been meaning to get over here to read about your experience… I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to come by! I’m so impressed Nicki and even got a little teary eyed reading about it. You must have been SO proud. And with an asthma attack in the middle? You’re an inspiration. I hope to run with you one day!! Congratulations!
Mar 17, 2010 @ 19:03:18
Thanks, Becca. I am not fast but have a few plans for working on that, too. Training for my next half has already started.
Mar 17, 2010 @ 09:21:21
Nicki! You are a Rock Star! I could never, in a million years, do what you did! AWESOME!
Mar 17, 2010 @ 19:03:27
Thanks, TKW, and you could do it if you wanted to.
Mar 17, 2010 @ 12:05:41
Congrats! I know the feeling of reaching the point where I know I can finish my goal and it is wonderful. I am so impressed, running has always frightened me a little because my legs turn out and I look kind of weird doing it, but you are starting to make me think I should give it a try.
Mar 17, 2010 @ 19:04:14
If anyone looks weird running, it is me, Charlotte! If you want to run, you can do it. Thank you!!!
Mar 17, 2010 @ 14:59:58
Wow. Seriously – wow! I heard a quote the other day (at the gym, I think, so it might have been some twisted advertising effort) that said “There is no such thing as strength, only strength of will.” You truly have willpower and a strong heart – no matter how much you trained, it is about pushing yourself to keep going in the moment when all you want to do is stop.
Bravo!!
Mar 17, 2010 @ 19:04:29
Thanks, Eva!
Mar 18, 2010 @ 13:07:26
Nicki
Great posts (all 3 of them) – between the “shyness,” (takes me a long time of “observing others” before I open up – which often is interpreted as being bitchy), exercise induced asthma (I have it too although it is much more controlled now – the more in shape I am, the better it is, so keep it up girl!), and the crying ( I wanted to cry in much the same way that you describe after my first marathon) I think we are somewhat alike!
In other words, I am kinda opposite of Kristy! Haha!
Great job on Sunday – I am glad you chose Celebrate Life as your first half. It was great spending time with you and getting to know you.
I’ll be at the Vestal 20 – you?
Kathleen (CLHM Race Director)
Mar 19, 2010 @ 05:49:43
Kathleen – thanks for stopping by and taking time to read all three. I can see you are Kristy as sort of opposites. LOL!
I am glad I got to spend time with you. I am thinking that the Vestal 20 will be my June race. Didn’t have one on the calendar yet.
Mar 18, 2010 @ 13:28:54
You are an inspiration, Nicki, to all of us! Running a half marathon is no mean feat and to do it with a recent injury and an asthma attack is especially impressive!
Mar 19, 2010 @ 05:50:23
Thanks, Kristen! I am getting back out there slowly this week and starting all over again. Next race is 4/11.